I was thinking today that there are 2 very different sides in me. There's the Bree Van De Kamp / Martha Stewart side that loves baking and doing the cutest things, and there's the party as hell-kick in your face-I'll do what I want side...
So while making brownies in the morning, then bread, then cake pops and finally pizza for my dear husband (and me, obviously) I thought that maybe one of both parts is a fake. Either I'm a total nerd and my real job in life is to be a loving housewife and I'm trying to disguise it, or I'm a total freak and well... I was gonna say trying to disguise it as well, but that's not true.
Of course there's the irrefutable fact that the nerdiest women often are the most messed up. We can't forget Martha going to jail and Bree having that drinking problem, only to name a few.
I'm not planning on going to jail any time soon, so maybe I should start with a drinking problem? LOL, I don't think so... Those times are gone as well. Maybe that's what freaks me out sometimes, a couple of years ago when I wasn't a mom and we spent every Thursday, Friday and Saturday night partying like the apocalypse was coming, it's like all my stress went in there. (Now that I think about it, without kids, why was I stressed???) Now my stress goes (sadly) to... Huh? Where does it go? I know I have plenty of stress packed somewhere, but at the moment I'm not sure where it's going. Maybe in a couple of months I'll explode and go mad like Michael Douglas in Falling Down (great movie by the way... I think we have all thought of doing some of the stuff he does).
Don't know. As for today, my biggest doubt is which part of me will win at the end, the Bree part or the Pshyco freak part...
According to this article I read about how the personality you have by first grade, defines your personality for life (Personality Set for Life By 1st Grade, Study Suggests), I should be:
-a tomboy
-always trying to be the center of attention
-not willing to share my stuff out of fear they might damage it
-convinced that I do EVERYTHING better than everyone else
-chubby (this counts in personality if you truly love food)
-mean to other kids
-a good friend over all
-hyper active
Hmm... I think it might be true!! Looks like a haven't changed a bit since first grade! I was trying to remember when was that I started the whole cooking thing, and I think it has always been there, but the baking thing definitely came with motherhood.
So in the most corny possible way, I think being a mom has made me sweeter! Maybe I have a chocolate heart after all :)
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