Eccentric? Or just trying too hard?

I had lunch with my friends today, and we shared a lot of memories from high school and talked about school options for our own children.We talked about being a teen, about friends, about fitting in.

The timing couldn't be better to read what I just did. It's an article about creativity called "The unleashed mind: why creative people are eccentric".
I enjoyed it a lot.

I've always thought of myself as a person who's somewhat eccentric, but I must confess that describing oneself as anything, proves quite the opposite.

So I often limit the descriptions of myself to the physical part that are obvious to everyone (fat, pale, brown hair...). You'll never hear me saying "oh, I'm sooo smart" or "I'm so talented" (unless I've been drinking a few glasses of course, that changes the whole story. Then you'll hear me talking about anything else than me, me, ME, ME!).

But I do like to say every now and then that I think of myself as a creative person, because that's something true. I don't go around saying stuff like "you won't IMAGINE what I did with that necklace you gave me, I took all the beads out and sewed them in a tshirt,  because I never use an object for it's original purpose..."
No. I don't say things like that. I hate people who do that. It seems so lame to me.
I like working on the creative area of things, and I enjoy when I come up with a solution for a problem that's been bothering me. So yes, I do think I'm creative.
But eccentric? No. I wouldn't go that far.

I have my moments, but most of the time I'm trying to be different. I hate looking like someone else. Since high school I've been trying to be different than most and look different from ALL.

When does trying to be different end and genuinly thinking different begins? According to this article, if I believe in fairies, elfs, unicorns, ghosts and life beyond death I have a Schizotypal personality. 
So that makes you weird. 
I don't think so, but I have talked about this stuff to people that looked at me as if I was serial killer telling about their next victim!


True story... I once told this woman that used to be my client, about an elf that lived in my house and hid stuff. I told her how I left him pork meat and a shot of whiskey at night and he once drank it. When I finished my story, she was looking at me like I was a crazy person. Really. She had this huge eyes and her mouth was wide open, and she just said "oh my, you are hillarious". 
I wasn't kidding! I told her that, but she pretended to do something else and that was the end of it.


Does that mean I have a Schizotypal personality? Or does that mean that I HAD AN ELF LIVING IN MY HOUSE!!!


Anyway... Even though I've heard before about creativity being linked to eccentricity, it's nice knowing that those sudden urges I get now and then are linked to something more that crazyness!

(see, I'm saying that I'm crazy, because I don't actually think that I am.)

Why should you care what I share

Having a weird day is, well, weird. I really can't explain how is it that get into weird mode, but I suddenly start questioning everything I make and I start feeling very thankful for the things I have.

It's like depression disguised as weirdness. Really. I've been meaning to write an entry for quite a while, but every time I'm gonna sit and write, I get this question in my head.

So... Why am I writing this? Why should anyone care what I have to say?

We share stuff all the time these days. Facebook, twitter, instant messages. You don't even have to call anyone to tell them something. You can just make an anonymous statement in twitter and get it out of your system. Why complain with anyone about anything, when you can tweet some lines filled with rage (or love) and leave them floating on the internet.

As I said before, today I'm having a weird day, and I actually tweeted that a few minutes ago. And then I started looking up stuff on you tube and I had this sudden urge to share everything.
Why would you want anyone to know what you're listening, what your watching and ultimately what you feel?

Isn't kind of embarrassing letting people know that you should be at work WORKING and not looking up for stupid stuff on line?

I'm actually lucky to be my own boss and have my own schedule, but I still feel like a lazy person every time I share something on Facebook during office hours!